I feel the need to shoot something.

More on this, later on.

My list is pretty long.

It's about time

It's about fucking time I updated my blog. Hmmm... where do I start?

Well, I'm ever so busy with school now, but my mind can't seem to grasp that fact. Instead of stressing over everything, I'm chill and very very lazy. Heck, I can do a week without work but I can't stand a day without visiting my Pupe.jp page. The thing about pupe is, you don't just post things and get comments as rewards, you get items for your avatar to prettify it. I swear, it's seriously addicting, even if it's in Japanese. If you're interested, don't sign up just yet! Give me your e-mail and I'll send you an invite, so we can automatically be friends and you get 30 ribbons (pupe currency)! Gaaah.

See what I mean? I should be working on a painting (to be submitted tomorrow) but instead I write down on my dusty blog. Oh shame.

My thesis is going slooow. The deadline for chapter 1 is on the 16th and I haven't done an effing thing. The moment I have my data, I'll start working on it like a madman. You know how hard it is to look for the Philippine's current fashion industry? They're usually just in blogs or in forums. Luckily, I already have a couple of interviews lined up for that very reason. I'm so giddy to announce that I'll be interviewing (even though it's only thru e-mail correspondence; she's ever so busy!) Miss Cecile Zamora van Straten the amazing stylist and designer. Egads! I'm such a fan *_* Next, I'll be interviewing our textile design teacher (haha) who also happens to be the owner of Pink and Blue Soda (say whut) awesome. More on this professor in a bit. I'm also trying ot get a hold of CSB's Dean of Fashion for an interview.

I already have my interview questions and the final draft for my survey questions, so hopefully by tomorrow I can start :)

So much to do. So little motivation~~

Our textile design teacher is new. She graduated with honors from UST (same course) and FIT in NYC. She's kinda has it going for her. The thing is, my class thinks her lectures are boring and unecessary (textile properties, prices and all that chorva) and at first I wanted to swat them but now she's just meh. If it wasn't for the fact that she likes me (let me borrow her 9heads book =0) I'd be "BKAHIUHGLKSGADBHSLKD!!" on her ass. Grawr.

She's cool though, always willing to help out the struggling fashion student. Bless her heart.

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I really sound like a bitch now, yes? Because I'm quite unhappy. Ate some bad food and I feel like throwing up after every nibble (bulemia? semi-yay?!). No more sisig for me! Also, MY ISSUES ARE COMING BACK PLZ. I'm hatin' on myself. Shit.

Muchos loves to one and all!
Creole
bitchin

Sad

It's been a wonderful day with surprises. But in the end, it kind of sucks because they make me sad.

:(

300

It was a heartbreaking morning. I don't want to talk about it because you might think I'm overreacting but I'm not. Le sigh. So I turn to Gustav and the sexy 300 trailer to chase the blues (and stress) away -- even if it's temporary :)

EMO

This is a mega nega post.

Emo died the other day. I'm devastated. At least he's in a better place now.

RIP kitty ;n;

When you lose something you can't replace

Unlike my other posts, this is actually an emo post. You are free to skip this entry, of course, and direct your way to my Flooble to start a flooble-war.

It sucks when you're too emotionally drained to participate or even appreciate something so huge/massive that would have done wonders/cause havoc in your personal life. It was there and I didn't even let it sink into my skin.

Maybe I shouldn't write about it.

Screw it I'm posting 2 lyrics!!
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Fix You by Coldplay

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse
When the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

High up above or down below
When you're too in love to let it go
If you never try you'll never know
Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face
When you lose something you cannot replace
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Tears stream down on your face
I promise you I will learn from the mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I...

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

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Strange & Beautiful (I'll Put A Spell On You)

I've been watching your world from afar,
I've been trying to be where you are,
And I've been secretly falling apart, unseen.
To me, you're strange and you're beautiful,
You'd be so perfect with me but you just can't see,
You turn every head but you don't see me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep and I'll put a spell on you.
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see, lyric's top
And you'll realise that you love me.

Yeah...
Yeah...

Sometimes, the last thing you want comes in first,
Sometimes, the first thing you want never comes,
And I know, the waiting is all you can do,
Sometimes...

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep,
I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me.

I'll put a spell on you,
You'll fall asleep 'cos I'll put a spell on you,
And when I wake you,
I'll be the first thing you see,
And you'll realise that you love me, yeah...

Yeah...

Sige lang, sandal ka lang

It's funny how things turn movie-esque. You're looking at his blog thinking about everything that bothered you today and wondered if it's all alright, when your mobile rings and it's him saying goodnight.

I'm still not good. Maybe I will have to pull a Nicole Richie and seek better influences, better outcomes. Avoid the people that put me down and hurt me, get rid of my frenemies because they're simply not worth it.

I'll stay strong and I'll trust.

To those who helped me through this day, who saw me leak a tear or two, to those who stand by and behind me despite my issues, to those who continue to love me even though I can be intolerable most at times, Thank you. I don't know what I'd do without you.

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Despite my moping and sulking it was a relatively productive and good day :) I got Betty back. To those who don't know, Betty is what I call my old old old PC. She's had a rough rough life but she's back! I need to get my iTunes installer though... and Mozilla (ew ew ew internet explorer) and a bunch of other programs that will surely kill Betty's motherboard.

I passed my (yucky yucky) package design plate (RAISINS!!) and then we visited Sugar in the hospital~ Thank you faculty christmas party!

I am no longer making sense.

But I think I got my point across.

People loved my outfit today.

Go black go!

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i♥tokwa

Maybe I should pull a Nicole Richie

And ditch the bad inflences in my life. Get rid of the MEGA NEGA factors, people and things that hurt me and my friends.

Of course I'd rather not talk about it because these factors insipre negativity, insecurity and dangerous dangerous paranoia. I don't think anyone needs that.

So please, stop making my life worse. Stop antagonizing me. Stop making my life a living hell.

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Back to work.

Let me take this oppurtunity...

To tell the world that I am so bloody pissed I cannot see straight.

Maybe I'm asking too much or maybe, for the first time in my life, I actually see someone is at fault. It's not even worth talking about.

Thanks guys, you just reverted me back into a MEGA NEGA BITCH.

Loves ya! *mwahmwah*

♥

Plus side:
I got to see and talk to Tokwa today. :"> If I keep writing like this it'll look like I'm in a one-sided crush affair than an actual relationship! lawlz.

Mega Delaying Tactics

I'm too lazy and stupid to work on my raisin box. I think I had too much Keema for lunch. I'm overstuffed and my head hurts.

Some serious negative things now.

My head is fucking throbbing and my eyes are deathly unfocused. Thinking of raisin boxes, Velez-work and Fashion Design is making me wanna pull a Mia and share my lunch with my toilet.

Speaking of Kabab...

Went to Victorynite last night where I got dolled-up (and by dolled-up I looked like someone's Tita chaperone!) and listened to some serious ispiration. Can't wait for my One2One!

Ate at Kabab with Petter and his friend Joel. Nazee missed this which sucked because I was supposed to treat him!! TSK!

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I can't even write properly. Headaches SUCK.

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On a lighter note, I talked to Tokwa last night. ♥ It does my heart good.

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I leave you with Japanese cult classic, Suicide Circle. I haven't seen it but it may be too freaky for me to watch alone.



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Thinking of work makes me wanna vomit.

EDIT!
I made a dollie!


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